Episode

So I woke up at 5am this morning having a full blown episode, panic, physical symptoms, everything but throwing up, although my stomach is not very happy. This is the first time I’ve had one of these since I started seeing my doctors. I’ve had to take 2 whole pills this morning and I’m still just at the verge of control. At this point, I really have to work at keeping the panic away. Currently the strategy is TV and working on the computer, but if it doesn’t work, I’ll be going for a walk. If you’ve got anxiety or panic disorders, here’s some things that work for me to help calm the storm:

Walking is pretty counter intuitive, but walking will get your system to wake up and shake loose of the panic. In my case, walking is the best for when I’m feeling nauseous. If you’ve got a walking partner, even better. You’ll get your mind occupied and work off some nervous energy.

Showers always help my mood when I’m in a bad one. I’ve found that I need to get my head wet for some reason for the most effect. If you want to boost the effect, make yourself a lavender salt or sugar rub and pamper yourself a little.

Sex/release. Makes sense right? It’s really hard to walk away from an orgasm unhappy. It might be difficult to focus, but it’ll help once you can get there.

Talking it out, especially my Mom or someone who understands the condition. It’s hard for people who don’t have these feelings to understand why you can’t just stop it. You’d be surprised who you can find that has problems like this, it’s not always easy to spot, but I know several people who have similar problems.

Drink a cup of relax tea (something with St John’s Wart, Valerian, Camomile and/or Lavender) if you can get it down. The St John’s seems to stop the panic faster than the other herbals. Plus, it’s a relaxation ritual. You could add in a favorite book or movie and a blanket too.

Working the garden or pulling weeds feels good because it’s burning energy and it’s productive. A lot of people find pulling weeds to be pretty therapeutic. We used to take breaks when I worked in taxes to pull weeds so we didn’t all kill each other.

Cleaning something or checking something off my to do list. I always feel better when I see a clean kitchen, bathroom, carpet, etc. I also find it insanely satisfying to cross off things on my to do list (yes, it’s actually on paper, like with a pen and everything)

Making something is also awesome if you’re crafty. It’ll occupy your mind, exercise a different part of your brain and, if you’ve done the creation process correctly, you should end up tired but pleased with yourself.

Finally, if you’re like me and need medication to help, take them. There’s no shame in asking for help. Living in fear is unacceptable. I hope that I’ll be able to get off the pills someday with the help of therapy and possible other treatment, but I can accept the pills. The alternative is no life at all.

(In case you’re a new reader, my alternative to pills is daily panic attacks, multiple times a day that manifest physically in vomiting. This is causing damage to my throat and digestive system and makes it very difficult to get the nutrition I need. As someone who LOVES food, it’s scary and depressing not to want to eat or not to be able to. All of that makes being excited and interested in life nearly impossible.)

~ by accordingtoleanne on May 15, 2012.

3 Responses to “Episode”

  1. hoping you feel better soon

  2. EHUG, hope you feel better

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