It’s 1am and I can’t sleep. I start school in the morning after 2 years off. I’m going to a totally new college and I have to figure out all the freshman type stuff like where to park and where my classes are. This shouldn’t be a problem but I’m freaked out.

I’m afraid of all the little things that could go wrong. At this point, I’m even afraid that I’ll be sick in the morning or too tired to get up which is only compounding my anxiety.

I try really hard not to care and to be laid back. I’m generally successful in faking it, but times like this remind me that I’m no less high strung than I’ve always been.

Really tomorrow is no big deal. I just have to keep that in my head. It’s just another day. Change is good for you. Right? Why is it that these things seem so much bigger and scarier in the middle of the night?

~ by accordingtoleanne on January 3, 2011.

2 Responses to “Fears”

  1. You are very brave and I am very proud of you for going forward with your education. You will be fine!

    Love, Lisa

  2. Just remember that it’s when you feel the most uncomfortable that you are putting yourself in positions of real growth. That never happens if you stick with what you’ve always known.

    Good luck.

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