I try to walk every day and since I started doing it, one of our neighbor’s dogs, named Buttercup, has followed me. At first I tried to discourage her, but she was so lonely and desperate for attention, so I slowly started to look forward to taking her with me. Over the winter, she’d been begging at our backdoor, so I started letting her in and letting her clean our plates after dinner. This Spring, she showed up clearly pregnant, so I started feeding her kibble and scraps. Since she had the puppies, I’ve been spending more time and energy on her and trying to keep weight on her. She started to come over in the mornings to meet me to take her for a walk. This morning should have been just another day.
We rounded the block as usual and I even got her to heel for me when she saw a car. I was actually making progress training her out of car chasing. The speed limit on my little dirt road is 25mph, so I was surprised when a white truck went barreling past at over 50. I was even more surprised when Buttercup darted out into the road. She’d been off in the field after a rabbit and I couldn’t grab her collar before she darted out. I know there’s nothing I could have done, but I feel immense guilt that I couldn’t grab her or that I had taken my walk at that time or any number of other factors that could have saved her life. I’m angry at the speeder. I’m mad at the owner for not taking care of her. I’m full of guilt that I couldn’t save her. I’m haunted by the sight of her rolling under the truck and bumping on the undercarriage, her yelps and the way she mouthed at my arm to tell me she was hurt, but didn’t bite. The guy didn’t even touch his brakes. I can’t believe someone could be so careless. The nice thing to do is to slow down a little when you see someone walking so you don’t dust them out. What if I’d tripped and fallen? He’d have run me over without blinking too. I think he’d have kept going too if I hadn’t yelled at him and made him help me get her back to my house. He apologized, but I could tell he didn’t care. Just a dog. It’s not just a dog. She had 7 puppies waiting for her and I loved her.
I rushed her to the vet, but there wasn’t much they could do. She was coughing up blood, in shock and not breathing well. They gave her some IV fluids and pain meds so that they could x-ray her. We headed home since they’d need to observe her for a time. When we got home, the vet called and said they had found severe lung trauma, a diaphragm hernia (her intestines were forced up through her diaphragm and into her chest cavity) and they weren’t sure that she’d survive a $1700 surgery. The owner didn’t want to spend any money on her and wanted her put down. The vet thought it’d be kinder to put her down rather than put her through all the pain of surgery. I agreed to let her be put down and cried in a corner for awhile. Meanwhile, the owner was on the phone with them, not paying the x-ray fees and extending Buttercup’s misery. They called me and I threw down credit cards to cover the $400 to put her down and told them not to let her suffer. I doubt I’ll ever see a dime of that back, but I did the least I could to help Buttercup.
This all brings me to one point: If you cannot afford (financially and time-wise) to take care of your pet properly, do not have a pet.
And one more: Slow the F down!
Rest in Peace Sweet Buttercup
Posted in Rants
Tagged animal cruelty, assholes, bad owners, cars, dirt road, dog, dogs, kibble, murder, neglect, Opinion, people suck, personal, pets, Rants, regret, run over, speeding, stray, stray dog, transportation, walk, yelps
Our bathroom was horrible, but we don’t really want to spend the money to fix it since we’re saving to build our new house. Here’s the before:
And after. Spackle, paint, contact paper and some free cabinet doors. I’m getting new carpets and towels that coordinate and hopefully a different hamper and makeup storage.
Posted in DIY Projects
Tagged bathroom, cheap, contact paper, craft, diy, easy, faux, Home, linens, makeover, paint, personal, redo, rugs, spakle, update
Yes, that is a baby carrier
I knew when I adopted Lucy-Furr (her name was Nessie, but new home, new name) that she was crazy affectionate. She wants to be held all day everyday and up near your face. It becomes a challenge to try and work while holding a 15-20lb cat, not to mention tiring. When I won a gift card for a baby store, I wasn’t really sure what to get, but after doing some shopping for mommas I know, I decided to give this a try. I’d never buy it with my own money, you could use a super long sheet or several yards of fabric if you know how to tie it. However, Lucy adores this and will stay in it for hours.
Posted in Box-Cat Lucy and the Baby Bug
Tagged adopted, baby carrier, baby sling, black cat, cat, cat bed, cat carrier, crazy cat lady, cute, Daily life, diy, Fun, funny, furbaby, Home, humor, kitten, kitty, life, Lifestyle, Miscellaneous, personal, pets, style, transportation, win
Posted in DIY Projects
Tagged beauty, cute, diy, epic, fail, Fun, funny, humor, manicure, nail art, nails, pedicure, personal, strawberry, watermelon
I can’t say how important thank you notes are. I don’t give further gifts to people who don’t show their appreciation for them. So, if you’re off today, take a minute to thank the people who made your Holidays bright.
This year, the turkey was amazing (I will put up the recipe in a few days) and we had dinners with both families. I got a WiiFit board (that we’re returning because it’s not what we thought it’d be), an office chair, new shoes, a hunting back, a new purse, a toaster, lots of chocolates and a little spending money. I got myself/Hootie/Lucy a new cat box that is supposed to be easier to sift. I also got myself a flat whisk, cupcake set, 30 below rated socks, some touch screen gloves and a new water bottle. I will probably still buy myself a set of thermals and a few other things. I am also considering upgrading my phone to a Galaxy Note II, but we’ll see about that.
I usually walk around the ‘block’ (we don’t really have blocks out in the country) every day and I’ve made friends with one of our neighbors dogs. He goes walking with me every day. At first he was a little stand offish and a little aggressive when I passed his place, but now that we gained a little trust, he’s my best buddy. I think I like him partly because he’s very much like Hootie in personality and mannerisms, plus he’s got the same colors and he’s got tiger stripes. He’s really quite a beautiful dog under all the dirt.
He was living with a guy who’s barely keeping his own head above water and apparently didn’t have enough or care enough to feed Scooby or to thaw out his water. Scooby’s got a history in the neighborhood of running away from home and choosing his own new one, so it didn’t surprise us when he started hanging out over here. We felt bad for him and started giving him dog bones and water. I’ve recently noticed that he’s also got worms, so that’s not helping with the starvation.
I feel bad for the little dude because no one’s wanted him his whole life probably because he’s half pit bull and half chow. Not the most trusted of breeds out there, but this guy is as sweet as any lab out there. Since I’ve started taking care of him he is much more attentive on walks, he’ll go about 200 yards ahead then turn back to make sure I’m still coming. I’ve taught him to sit already and I think someone was trying to train him to hunt because he’s got a habit of sitting on your feet (or he was taken from his mom too early). He leans on your legs when you pet him and is very gentle. He’s even tried to play wrestle with me by putting his mouth around my arm (he is even careful here not to even set his teeth into skin) and by tugging on my pants leg. Also since we’ve started paying attention to him, he’s started curling his tail and he’s gotten smile-y. (Curly tailed dogs usually have to consciously curl their tails. It’s a sign of depression or illness in them when they aren’t curling them)
Obviously we can’t have him in the house with the cats, but I’m adopting him as much as we can. I got some food for him and put water out in the mornings. When it warms up in the Spring, he’s getting a bath. Poor thing is so filthy your hands come away visibly dirty when you pet him. We’re thinking of setting him up a dog house with a heated blanket or making a spot for him on our porch. I’m not sure where he’s sleeping, he may already have a doghouse over at the neighbor’s house or maybe he’s allowed in at night, but I doubt it. He’s also getting de-wormer next time I go into town. I think once we do all that he’ll be in much better straights and will be an excellent guard dog.
Posted in Tales from the Backwoods
Tagged adopt, animals, brindle, chow, Daily life, dog, mix, mutt, nature, neglected, personal, pets, pitbull, rescue, starving, Tales from the Backwoods
I’ve spent most of my life as the quiet girl; meek, obedient and sweet. I considered my totem animal to be something like a rabbit or an otter. Now, I realize I’ve been denying myself my own power. I’m not a rabbit or an otter. I’m a wolf. I spent my whole life in sheepskin until I was back into a corner. *Check here for the background http://accordingtoleanne.com/2012/11/20/an-open-letter-to-my-abuser/ At first I was afraid and I ran and cried, but now, I’m done running. I’m going to stand and fight when I am challenged and I’m going to win. I’ve embraced an anger that has been simmering and bubbling beneath the surface my entire life, building under my tightly sealed lid. I’ve always been afraid of my anger, there’s so much of it and it’s the white hot, terrible rage of my father. I’ve been afraid my whole life that the rage would burn me up if I ever allowed it out into the light, but I’m learning to control the fire. I’m learning to temper it down to the cold, calculating anger of my mother. I feel feral sometimes, like I’d actually growl and bare teeth at anyone who dared to cross me. Anger stiffens my spine and I hold my chin up where I was a doormat before. I never realized it before, but I’m an alpha female. I provide for myself, I protect and defend the weak and I’m not to be messed with. My burdens feel good and my back strong as I bare them. It feels good to be a fighter, to thrash against injustice, to call out when I see wrongdoing and to speak my mind. Being a wolf feels good.
Courage isn’t being fearless, it’s doing things in spite of your fears.
Posted in A Mind on Fire
Tagged abuse, alpha female, anger, coming of age, domestic violence, fear, good courage, mental-health, Opinion, personal, quiet girl, rage, Random Thoughts, Rants, totem animal
Our unusually warm and dry weather is not helping me get into the Christmas spirit. It’s been in the 50s and 60s nearly everyday and it hasn’t rained or snowed in over 2 months. Adding to that is my work schedule, I’m working something approaching 100 hours a week. (I don’t sleep much) I’ve been doing a little holiday baking but it’s been forced. I haven’t put up any decorations, but maybe that will kick-start me. In the meantime, I’m going to start holiday shopping, which also means I’ve assembled a wishlist, so…
I am disappointed by the ads I’ve seen for stores opening as early as 8pm Thanksgiving evening to start Black Friday. One person they interviewed on the News said he saved $2000 last year by camping out in front of Best Buy for a week. How much money do you think he had to spend to save that $2000? He mentioned they were presents for his kids, if that’s true, I think that’s a bit overkill. I can’t imagine spending more than a couple hundred dollars per child, besides I think the kids would rather spend a week with their father than have a toy. We spend so little time with our families as it is, this is the one day we can pull it together and sit down for a family meal and these companies want us to rush through dinner to start shopping a day early? Do you really need another TV to ignore each other with? Can you actually afford any of that crap? I say no. We won’t even be participating in Black Friday this year. We will be spending our limited funds on Small Business Saturday. Our small businesses need our help and your money will stay in your community and improve your local economy. I’m glad a few companies are foregoing opening early so that their employees can enjoy the holiday. So put on your stretchy pants, sit back and enjoy your family.
Don’t forget to come back tomorrow for my Holiday Giveaway!
Posted in Holidays
Tagged black friday, Daily life, dinner, food, Fun, giveaway, Holidays, Opinion, personal, Rants, sales, small business saturday, Society, Thanksgiving
I lost 2 classmates from High School this weekend. One ran in different crowds than us, but the other I knew pretty well. The girl I didn’t know as well committed suicide and I don’t know many more details. The woman I did know was a great friend and a strong woman. She’d been battling cancer for over a year and the prognosis had been sounding more positive, but she didn’t make it. My heart is heavy for her family and my old high school sweetheart and his family. We’d all been friends since we were about 15 or 16 and in college they hit it off after he and I broke up. We’ve all grown apart, but this still hits me hard. I have many memories of us all that still make me laugh, only now, the tears on my face aren’t from laughing too hard. I especially hurt for her boyfriend, who stood by her through all of it. She was only 27, make the most of your life, every day you have.